New Year

I have been given two wonderful grandpa's.
I posted a picture of my Grandpa Motza earlier this year and wanted one of Grandpa Long. This is a favorite of mine. He is looking at Grandma Norma. I love his face.
Grandpa is the epitome of "what you see is what you get". His love for my family and his God is so fierce. He believes in us all so much. He is the first grandpa to pull out his wallet and start in on the photos. To praise and encourage and to say when we're full of it. He calls and asks if I'm coming over for weekly. He gets mad and leaves me messages on how I've been neglecting my grandparents. My grandpa, he never missed a basketball game. He drove across the country to watch me play. He thinks that he is the best dancer there ever was and will tell you so. He told me he might go ahead and get spacebook (apparently what he hears when the grand kids talk facebook). He sits on the edge of his seat watching love stories on Hallmark.He rebuilds engines and will never let you win. He is a man I respect and cherish.



"Don't you just hate that? Uncomfortable silences. Why do we feel it's necessary to talk about bull in order to be comfortable? That's when you know you've found somebody really special, when you can just shut the heck up for a minute and comfortably share a silence." - Pulp Fiction



Let's sit on front porchs and swing life away.
Let's compare scars.
Just be together.

"Poison & Wine" | The Civil Wars | OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO [HD]

You only know what I want you to
I know everything you don't want me to
Oh your mouth is poison, your mouth is wine
Oh you think your dreams are the same as mine
Oh I don't love you but I always will
Oh I don't love you but I always will
Oh I don't love you but I always will
I always will

I wish you'd hold me when I turn my back
The less I give the more I get back
Oh your hands can heal, your hands can bruise
I don't have a choice but I still choose you
Oh I don't love you but I always will
Oh I don't love you but I always will
Oh I don't love you but I always will
Oh I don't love you but I always will
Oh I don't love you but I always will
Oh I don't love you but I always will
Oh I don't love you but I always will
I always will
I always will

No matter how much you need something it doesn't always matter.

i carry your heart with me by E. E. Cummings
i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

I heard this poem from Mrs. Turner for the first time in high school.
The poem meant something to me then.
I read this poem in college.
It meant even more.
I heard it again in a movie tonight.
The meaning changes.
The ache that this poem leaves with me resonates.

I carry your heart. I carry it in my heart.
I think that's what we all want.

Stone Sour - Hesitate [HQ]

Whip My Hair (Cover)

Jerrod Niemann - What Do You Want

Five Finger Death Punch - Far From Home

A corey song that is being played over and over.

I went on squad runs with the local fire department last week. Walked into a boy's club of the best kind. The way they move is a well practiced dance and I didn't know many steps. I felt like I was looking the window and wishing to be a part of something. Their interactions are that of brothers. Respect doesn't cover what I think of them. An enlightening day of new experience. Plus they have hottt uniforms and get to drive fire engines... not much cooler than that.

My house is alive again. Not just living lonely. There's a reason to be around.My brother moved in. I love that there is someone there in the next room. I think when you've grown up together you fall into the same rhythm. Music blaring. Dancing through the house. Cookies just the way I like. I know how he operates. I know how he likes his eggs, his toast, his coffee. I know how to gauge his moods and his state of mind. I know not to approach him in the morning until he approaches you. I like that he is as disciplined and ocd as I am. He makes me laugh. I just love him. I want the best for him and hope he can find a sense of home here.

I feel
Beautiful
Wanted
Fabulously
Happy
Thankful
....and a little frustrated.
I hate waiting.

Nick Swardson: Seriously, who farted? (part 1/5)

Laugh.
Modern Family- Phil and Jay. Enough Said.
Nicholas- former gay roller skating prostitute.
Where's kelly?

I could watch these on repeat and still laugh every time.

Smile. Laugh with me now.

Mumford And Sons - Awake My Soul

Where you invest your love you invest your life.

PARAMORE - Use Somebody Acoustic Cover (KoL) BBC Radio 1 Live Lounge

I believe in following signs, I look for them.
I have a hard time giving up (even when I should).
I believe the best in people (even when I shouldn’t).
My face gives away all my feelings.
A song speaks louder than words.
Actions speak even louder than a song.
My hands shake all the time.
I love classic country and alt rock.
Holding hands always makes me feel better.
I believe in the power of touch because my mom taught me so.
I touch when I talk. I touch when I care.
Listening to sports makes me feel as safe and as comforted as a lullaby.
I talk too much when I’m nervous.
Don’t leave your feelings left unsaid if they’re happy feelings, you’ll only regret it.
I love children and the things they say.
I love fairy tales and I try to believe in happy endings.
I don’t know if they exist.
I think you should show others how you care.
Laughter helps heal.
I love when someone actually looks at me. And actually sees me. Not what I let them see
or what they want to see.
Jumping in is what I do best.