Beyoncé - 1+1

Hold on

I never thought things would be easy. I've had to work so hard for everything that has turned out wonderful in my life. I have made mistakes. So many. I give everything when I decide what it is I want. I overthink. My fears get the best of me. My stomach churns. My heart turns over for fear that I may lose what's important to me. Sometimes it is blinding. The real perspective is there under cripling misconceptions. What you mean and what you say is not what I hear. This said. The reality is I have a beautiful life. A beautiful future in my sight. I just want to grasp it and never let go. Hold on with me.

Making Plans

If I ever left this town
I'd never settle down
I'd just be wanderin' around
If I ever left this town

If I wasn't by your side
I'd never be satisfied
Nothin' would feel just right
If I wasn't by your side

'Cause I'm not easy to understand
But you know me like the back of your hand
I'm your girl and you're my man
And we're makin' plans....

We can go on and on
Won't ever feel too long
I'll always call you home
And we'll go on and on

'Cause I know you like the back of my hand
Got a heart of gold and a piece of land
I'm your girl and you're my man
And we're makin' plans....

I'm sitting with miss suz and drinking my morning mocha coffee in bliss, thinking too much. VH1 morning countdown is on. Our walk this morning was beautiful. Sun shining but crisp and cool. It makes me long for fall. Next month in the fall I will be 25. I constantly ask myself where did the time go. At 25 I thought I would be different, in a different place, a different life. I thought I would be a cool, cloth diaper, music loving, hip, momma wife. Thus far I have achieved the music loving. And I am a momma to our suz. I am really ok with that.I've learned so much about myself by not being that person. This is what I tell myself. I am happy. I have a wonderful guy and although we don't see eye to eye on some things is there for me. I love him more than I thought I was capable of. I didn't realize that could hurt so much. I'm excited for changes but I feel like all I do is make plans. So for my birthday I am going to blow out the candle and wish for all my dreaming dreams to come true. It could happen...right? :) I hope 25 is an amazing year and my cup continues to run over.

Christina Perri - Distance + Lyrics

"Distance"

The sun is filling up the room
And I can hear you dreaming
Do you feel the way I do right now?
I wish we would just give in Cause the best part is falling
Call it anything but love

And I will make sure to keep my distance
Say "I love you" when you're not listening
How long can we keep this up, up, up?

And please don't stand so close to me
I'm having trouble breathing
I'm afraid of what you'll see right now
I give you everything I am
All my broken heart beats
Until I know you understand
And I will make sure to keep my distance
Say "I love you" when you're not listening
How long can we keep this up, up, up?

And I keep waiting
For you to take me
You keep waiting
To save what we have

So I make sure to keep my distance
Say "I love you" when you're not listening
How long can we keep this up, up, up?

Make sure to keep my distance
Say "I love you" when you're not listening

Hanging By a Moment

At times I know that I lose it a little.
Emotional shake up.
A comment, a song, a commercial makes me want to cry.
My insecurities all sit on the surface of my mind.
Easily read all over my face.
The fact that I don't feel worthy.
All the worries I have make me feel like I can't breathe.
Relationships. Wants. Beliefs.
It just makes me feel like my normal rose colored glasses only see grey.
I know this is hormones. I feel it coming every month.
It makes me feel weak. It makes me feel guilty.
I'm normally such a positive person.
I know this is normal. A majority of my friends are irritable or tearful.
Doesn't mean I hate it any less.
and pimp. thanks for dealing with me happy. being with me crazy. holding me when i'm sad. You make my heart float.

Pearl Jam - Love Boat Captain

"Love Boat Captain"

Is this just another day,... this god forgotten place?
First comes love, then comes pain. Let the games begin,...
Questions rise and answers fall,... insurmountable.

Love boat captain
Take the reigns and steer us towards the clear,... here.
It's already been sung, but it can't be said enough.
All you need is love

Is this just another phase? Earthquakes making waves,...
Trying to shake the cancer off? Stupid human beings,...
Once you hold the hand of love,.. it's all surmountable.

Hold me, and make it the truth,...
That when all is lost there will be you,...
Cause to the universe I don't mean a thing
And there's just one word I stil believe
And it's

It's an art to live with pain,... mix the light into grey,..
Lost 9 friends we'll never know,.. 2 years ago today
And if our lives became too long, would it add to our regret?

And the young, they can lose hope cause they can't see beyond today,...
The wisdom that the old can't give away
Hey,...
Constant recoil...
Sometimes life
Don't leave you alone.

Hold me, and make it the truth,...
That when all is lost there will be you.
Cause to the universe I don't mean a thing
And there's just one word that I still believe and it's
Love,... love. love. love. love.

Love boat captain
Take the reigns,.. steer us towards the clear.
I know it's already been sung,... can't be said enough.
Love is all you need,.. all you need is love,..
Love,.. love,...
Love.