nostalgia

sitting in bed thinking about the present. the things and people i'm thankful for. some days you need to take count. for the winter blues can take over your heart. overwhelmingly thankful for my family. my husband who is cantankerous and amazing- who doesn't let you see how big his heart is- but then you look. really look and it's overwhelming. our son. he has filled our life up in ways i didn't know existed. he humbles me, baffles me. I have found that you can give no advice to others because really we're all different and so uniquely our own. HEALTH- being in healthcare I constantly look around and praise god that we're healthy. These past six months taught me you don't always know who people are and you can hope people are good. That I really do believe in prayer. That no matter how much I fight my brain on this one there has to be a God. How else would Foster be with us? Or I have found a man like Rick? God is there- and things aren't always easy. Faith is not always easy,marriage is not always easy, but I do believe that he- god- has blessed my life. That things that tore my heart in two in my past have led me to this place and it is where I am meant to be. In my bed. Wishing my husband were home. After getting off the phone with my parents. After putting my little man- who is my heart- in his crib and watching him sleep. I am where I should be.