CHANGES

The trees are about to show us how lovely it is to let things go.


My kids are asleep. Let me repeat. My kids are asleep and I am slightly buzzed. LANY on in the background. Honestly this an amazing state to be in. I have made changes again. I sometimes wonder if it is stupidity or courage. I ask for obvious signs to show that my decisions are the right ones. I psycho analyze myself- my parents worked in positions that they despised for so many years. Bleeding onto every aspect of our lives. I choose to have the courage to make a change when I am unhappy. I don't want to be known as a person who jumps ship but I also don't want to be known as a person who doesn't grow. I want our babies to see me reach for the stars. Is it possible to reach and see and dream? I think about things now. Retirement. Childcare. Futures. I don't have the same perspective as I did at 21. I want this next season to be lovely. I want to embrace every aspect of the change and be grateful for the opportunity that presented itself. Where am I? I am not really sure- but I am not sitting still. I am reaching for every single star in the sky. Kissing my babies. Loving my husband. Holding onto the tiny, beautiful things that make my heart sing.