Blame it on my A D D

Lightening strikes the heart. goes off like a gun. Brighter than the sun.



If this is what we've got, then what we've got is gold.



Love her.

I am so busy and so happy.

Fall in

Do you know that day?
Everyone has had one.
You feel it glow.
It's letting the balloon fly.
The happiness of blowing the best bubble.
It's Catching fireflies.
It's ice cream dripping down your chin.
A favorite song on the radio.
Yesterday is a memory that I want to tuck under my pillow.
And let it dream...

Katharine McPhee - Terrified ft. Zachary Levi

This could be good.
It's already better than that.
I could be all that you're needing if you let me try.

Bedlight For Blue Eyes - Jumper

I know the reasons I became a nurse.
I thought I knew what I was getting into.
I had no idea.
Sometimes I forget to be human.
That the task and the fact that I am so busy is not an excuse to not take time.
The facts are: families are afraid.
They want reassurance and not a hurried nurse who is split in so many directions.
Last night I cleaned up a patient probably every ten minutes.
90% by myself.
She cried as I wiped.
Her daughter held her hand.
I wanted to cry too.
My back was aching from rolling 300 pounds on my own.
I was 8 hours into my 12 hour shift and had not had a break.
My hands had started their shakes that wouldn't stop.
I had 5 other patients and my phone wouldn't stop ringing.
Her stool was pooled around her.
Her bottom raw.
Her hair gone.
Tachycardic and drenched in sweat.
She was apoligizing repeatedly.
I started talking to not cry.
I asked about daughter. About her grandchildren. About her life.
The crying stopped and she slept.
When I took her to the unit her daughter held me in a hug. And held me.
Helped me remember that making the effort is worth it.

I am so grateful for health.