flutter

I walk in the door.... "hi sweets" i smile because i can never not smile at him. he makes me laugh. makes my heart swell. i through my arms around him and kiss his lips. i love this man. i upset him last week i think. as a nurse i have access to an ultrasound with many willing friends and i wanting to see baby birt i love this. watching it swim, bounce, move. its heart flutter. its an addictive thing to watch life grow. its affirming that there is a god. i just didnt really think about rick. and i am sorry for this. but rick got to see our baby this week. his eyes were fixated on the screen. watching its heart flutter. watching baby do flips in my tummy. i love that we made a baby together. that he is just as happy about it as i am. that his hearts on his sleeve and he can't wait to meet our child. having him as my baby's father is a gift.