Days like these

I will remember that everyone is fighting something bigger than themselves

Secrets
i love taylor swift and her songs
i feel like she knows just how i feel
i would choose to watch a baby story over almost all else.
i cry when the baby is born
i detest women smoking-it literally disgusts me
i think a man smoking is attractive
i hate the way i look without mascara
i overthink others critisism of me and i take it to heart
i shouldn't care
i love to fly
i count calories in my head
not just for myself but others
i think i'm a detective when i'm on a run because I try to recall the cars that belong in what driveway
i like eating the middle of an oreo and giving the rest to my puppy
i never knew what heartbreak felt like till this year- my heart literally felt broken
live flowers in the house make me feel like a rich person and extravegant
i hate shopping and feeling buyers remorse- i like to drink after shopping to take it away
yoga pants make me feel curvy and i adore it
feeling loved and wanted is the best gift i've ever been given
dancing by myself is a daily passtime- i thinks i'm great

To carry

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you


here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart


i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)


Just love this poem.
Fills me up.

Country Strong Movie Clip "Give In To Me" Official (HD)

I'm gonna wear you down
I'm gonna make you see
I'm gonna get to you
You're gonna give into me

I'm gonna start a fire
You're gonna feel the heat
I'm gonna burn for you
You're gonna melt for me


Come on, come on
Into my arms
Come on, come on
Give into me

You're gonna take my hand
Whisper the sweetest words
And if you're ever sad
I'll make you laugh
I'll chase the hurt

My heart is set on you
I don't want no one else
And if you don't want me
I guess I'll be all by myself

Come on, come on
Into my arms
Come on, come on
Give into me

I'll use my eyes to draw you in
Until I'm under your skin
I'll use my lips, I'll use my arms
Come on, come on, come on
Give into me


Give into me
Give into me

5 Year Old Girl Raps Nicki Minaj's "Superbass"

Had to share. I love her

Ryan Adams - Lucky Now

Birdy - Shelter (Official Video)

I was listening to the civil wars and came across another birdy song.
I find her haunting
Laying in front of my speakers and feeling her voice.
a complete different sound than adele but I find her just as moving.

i read this quote this week...
"be kinder than necessary, for everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle"

This makes me want to reign in my thoughts.
take back harsh judgements and words.
wrap them up and give the benefit.
it's hard to do so.
hard when my own experiences lead me to believe that you can be strong and carry on.

this week i want to hold my words a little closer.

fear

i turned in my application to graduate school.
nervous doesn't cover it
worry
i am finally in a place where I am happy and am frightened
if i get accepted will it ruin my newfound happy?
will 2 years be taken away from my family life by focusing on school?
i finally have my own family.
i want my everything
my love. a family. school.
the people in my life to understand that i need them.
can i have it all?
always wondering if i'm enough?
can i be everything i need to be?
i don't know and this scares me.