admiration

I started watching the olympics last night and I couldn't help but think of their dedication. I think these stories are the ultimate fairy tale stories of hard work and grace. That said it got me to thinking of who I admire. I must say that one of the things I admire in my husband is his love for his work. He is not one of those paramedic firefighters that rides around with their lights on their car or something flashing what he does. He is not about that and never will be. But I have seen my husband do what he does. He gets up in the middle of the night and puts in way too many hours. He gives. I have listened on the radio while he has pulled someone from a vehicle or has been the first into a fire. He is calm at these times like no one else I have seen. When the situation becomes serious he is even calmer. I watch his eyes now and see where he really is but I don't think anyone else notices. I have switched off CPR with him and can't help but admire and respect him. I know I am biased because I love him more than anything for so many reasons but I know that he is a quiet hero. I can't lie, there have been a few times where his job has frightened me. When he doesn't come home and I know there is a fire. I wait anxiously. I pray when that happens. I think he would be mad at me for posting this but he'll get over it. I am proud of him. I admire him.I adore him.

smile

I'm making rick go see this with me:)

Baby boy is moving so much now. I am relishing in each kick, loving him more everyday. My belly is getting even bigger. You know that feeling when you have eaten too much and you feel like your stomach will explode? That is what my belly feels like all the time now. Pulled just a little too tight and then little man kicks it and I think "grow baby grow". Now if only we can agree on a name!
Rick and I are off to Nashvegas this weekend for a little get away. Cramming in life today so I can really live it tomorrow.

Wanted

Well hello baby!
I'm feeling you all the time now. Ecspecially after I eat and in mornings/evenings. You move around with little "nudges" inside me. But yesterday Daddy got to feel you move! It was one of the coolest times we've ever had. Feeling a little someone we made. I keep praying so hard that your little body is growing well. We get to have an anatomy ultrasound on August 2. Just 2 1/2 weeks away. I can't wait to see you and figure out if we'll have a jolynn or a wilder? So praying baby birt. 
Lemonade now! I've always hated lemonade and now I want lemonade! Bizarre. Plus you are making me tired all the time. I can put my head down on the pillow and I'll fall asleep for hours in the middle of the day... you're zapping my crack energy. I love you baby b.

and i just like this song.

Cry

I sit here and cry for a friend's child. It's something I don't understand. Like father Ted said "this was not god's plan" " taking a child too soon I want to reach out and comfort but for this I dont know if there is comfort. I hope for peace for this family and for them to be able to put one foot in front of the other. I hope for solace

Stubborn Love

Its so hard to once have been in tune with someone else to realize it has changed.
I don't think you can come back to what once was. times change. people change. grow. become someone new. Life does not allow a person to be stagnant.
It is painful to realize that the person you once knew is isn't really there anymore.
I can let go and remember them for who they were in my memory.

The Lumineers - Ho Hey (Official Video)

Makes me want to turn it up and lay between our speakers tapping my foot.

....Sometimes it is better to be kind than to be right. We do not need an intelligent mind that speaks, but a patient heart that listens. ......