signs

i definitely believe in fate and reading signs a venture i took twice was placed with huge glaring roadblocks a push away from that direction- that it wasn't right i continue to struggle with things letting themselves take their course being patient with people and time thinking that things that are easy for me are easy for everyone else listen accept hurt and try again. this is on rerun

They're my everything

It's amazing that our wedding day was almost a year ago. Even more unbelievable is our love resulted in this beautiful person.

A Pep Talk from Kid President to You

i love this kid

i want to do this year (thanks le)
1. Drink plenty of water.
2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like beggar.
3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
4. Live with the 3 E’s — Energy, Enthusiasm and Empathy.
5. Make time to meditate.
6. Breathe
7. Read more books than you did in 2012.
8. Sit in silence for at l...east 10 minutes each day.
9. Sleep for 7 hours.
10. Take a 10-30 minute walk daily. And while you walk, smile.
11. Comparing our lives to others is fruitless. We have no idea what their journey is about.
12. Replace negative thoughts with positive ones especially about things out of our control. Invest energy in the positive present moment.
13. Try not to over do. Understand limits.
14. Why take ourselves so seriously. No one else does.
15. Gossip drains precious energy.
16. Dream more while we are awake.
17. Envy is a waste of time. We already have all we need.
18. Forget issues of the past. Let go of our partners mistakes of the past. Focus on our present/future happiness.
19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
20. Make peace with our past so it won’t spoil the present.
21. No one is in charge of our happiness except us.
22. Realize that life is a school and we are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons we learn will last a lifetime.
23. Smile and laugh more.
24. We don’t have to win arguments. It’s ok to agree to disagree.
25. Call your family often.
26. Each day give something good to others.
27. Forgive everyone for everything.
28. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
29. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
30. What other people think of you is insignificant compared to what you think of yourself.
31. Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends & family will. Stay in touch.
32. Do the right thing!
33. Keep only things that are useful, beautiful or joyful.
34. Higher powers heal everything.
35. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
36. No matter how we feel, get up, dress up, and show up.
37. The best is yet to come.
38. When we awake alive in the morning, be thankful.
39. Our Inner most is always happy. Release your “Inner Happy” on the world every day!

summer

i like this song but I really just want to jump into the video.
beautiful. summer is right around the corner and I can't wait!

rick and i are getting ready to close on our first home that we are buying together.
so excited to get to work.
to have a beer on our own deck.
to enjoy a coffee on a chilly morning overlooking our view.
to blast our massive speakers.
to call it our own.
the birts- rick devin foster susan

i am amazed at the difference i feel about my job now and maybe this is because i'm still off work.
i feel like its the back burner, because my real job is being a mommy.
i am multiple roles but being a nurse isn't the first or even second on the list anymore.
wife mother daughter sister friend nurse
i like it this way- it just means my life is full

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i don't usually take any kind of political stance but i would like to share my viewpoint. right or wrong.
i'm having such a hard time with the gun control positions that are all over Facebook and listening to those that support the NRA and are in opposition of our president.
i listen to the views that are around me.
but i continually wonder when is it enough?
columbine wasn't enough. mall shootings weren't enough. arizona shootings weren't enough.
are the sandy hook shootings enough? is the death of our youth enough to ignite change?

I am not saying everything that the president is putting forth is what I feel is right.
I do feel we should have the right to bear arms but i think if I didn't support changes that if something were to happen in my own son's school I would be partially at fault.

i think change is needed. being in the healthcare field i frequently see the mentally ill.
mental health in clinton county is underfunded and understaffed. the process is broken. and it is broken everywhere.
sitting watching the inauguration and looking into the waste of our nations funds i can't help but think where those funds could be put to better use.  that our troops still being across the ocean is wrong. have them come home. put money in our children.

i guess my point is for all the critics is to give us a better plan. not one where our teachers are armed. creating a whole other set of problems and access. stop criticizing the attempts to protect and strive to help the mentally ill. help to make sure firearms are in the right hands and make attempts to keep them from the wrong ones.

happy living

looking in the mirror at my post baby body... hmmmm....words that come to mind? drab. jello. flat. It's not what I'm used to. I've always been fairly health conscious and a runner. 9 months of growing Foster seems to have changed my body. Part of me feels like its a badge of honor. As if saying, see what my body did? I am a part of an element that makes me a woman. I am now a mother. My body proves I am a mother. As a mother I want to feel strong again. I want to feel muscle and healthy. I am making a vow with myself that I will succeed and feel my body become strong over the next six months. (post doc go ahead). I want a body thats healthy and that is reflected when I look in the mirror. No more jello. I want to feel beautiful on the inside and outside. Wish me luck. (For the moment I am reveling in being a mother. holding my child is a gift that can never be compared to.)

Knowing Foster

Life altering. That is exactly what this month has been. I can, now, not imagine our lives without this person we created. He fills up our days. We are watching his every move, change, smile.
We are learning. Learning his cries. His noises. Watching him discover the world around him. This in itself is the most awe inspiring gift.

I love watching my husband interact with him. Watching the delight on his face when Foster follows his voice through the room. I find myself becoming teary at the most simple moments. I am savoring. Reminding myself that every moment is precious.
I know there are so many instances that I have trouble believing in God but this. This gift. This child could only be made by God. For that I thank him. He is perfect.

New Year

2013
I can not believe that the new year is here.
2012 was astounding in its changes for me.
A wife, a mother, a family.
So much LOVE.
This year I have a few goals. I want to participate in 3 runs.
5K, 10K, and half. I can't wait to get back to running.
It's so hard to wait the 6 weeks.
I'm adoring my hibernation with Foster and getting to know him.

My real goal is to be a better person this year.
I have difficulty not saying what I think out loud.
I usually say something then regret it.
I want to hold my tongue and be more thoughtful in my words.

Good luck to all this year.
Loving this life.