Leighton Meester sings "Words I Couldn't Say" in Country Strong

I never want to regret what I didn't do.
The words I couldn't say.
I don't want things to slip away.
I'm going to say it out loud.
Speak.

and then my soul saw you and it went "o i've been looking for you."


christmas
my favorite part of christmas is looking around and seeing the faces of those i love
those that know the best and worst of me and still love me
the tradition the ritual
making new traditions and new rituals
prospects of what the new year will bring
thinking of who i was missing last year and who is sitting beside me this year
the movies
the prayers
the music

yes

This weekend was beautiful.
It made me believe in a fairy tale.
Dreams can come true.

yes.
I will walk with you.
I'll wear white if you wear out the words I love you..
o yes i will marry you.
by your side is where i'll be
yes

Better Together

i know you think i'm odd
don't lie
just a little- a lot
but i think that you are meant to be the best part of my story
that fate wanted me to find you
that we are better together
that i did something right because i got you

ours

the jury is out
my choice is you

Long Ride Home - Patty Griffin (Texas Countryside)

When asked about "the life and death of it all" what is there to say?
The one is not the opposite of the other.
Death stands alone.
Life is to continue to walk on.
Walking when you want to stop.
Walking when every step you take is harder than the last.

I wish I could make it better.
Step back to when I could hold your hand in mine and make it ok.
Instead I watch you stand alone, inside yourself, in the shadow of death.
It is a shadow that encompasses and does not discriminate. It's so heavy.
It's senseless and time does not heal. Time scars. It haunts. Time helps us carry the weight of death.
Just remember, you are not alone. All you have to do is reach out. There will be a hand waiting.

now my feet won't touch the ground

Let me go boys, let me go
Push my boat from the highest cliff to the sea below
Rocks are waiting boys, rocks await
Swoop down from the sky and catch me like a bird of prey

Now my feet won't touch the ground
Now my head won't stop
You wait a lifetime to be found
Now my feet won't touch the ground

Singing now my feet won't touch the ground
Now my head won't stop
You wait a lifetime to be found
Now my feet won't touch the ground



no words make it better
easier
at a loss

so hard when someone you know becomes someone you knew

In Your Arms is where I want to be

Hush, now let's go quiet to the park
Where it first started
Cool night, us lying in the dark
I felt my heart
Was trying to find the place for you to stay
A place where I feel safe

[Chorus:]
Anything we have known, anything we've forgotten
In the rain, in the dark we'll lay
In your arms, in your arms I'll stay
Anything we have known, anything we've forgotten
In the rain, in the dark we'll lay
In your arms, in your arms I'll stay

Take my hand
Let's go into the trees
Behind the branches
Falling on our knees
I remember feeling like this part of us will never change

[Chorus]

Follow me
We both know the way
It's always been the same

[Chorus]

In your arms I'll stay [x4]



Had to share. They were on ELLEN again.

today

Today
Grandpa got a new hip.
Sitting in my chair watching his face I was reminded.
The times he picked me up from school.
Every basketball game he made it to.
Each school project he (and grandma) helped me create.
The sugar butter toast breakfast.
Holding me outside the ring after my showmanship debacle.
Vicks and sprite.
700 WLW.
A contagious accepting smile.
Bengals mug tea and cookies.
A grandpa who is priceless and like no other.
Whose smile tells me he loves me.
Talked to me and told me what I needed to hear.
Making me laugh till my stomach hurt.
Never judging.
A man whose hands speak of work and who smells like cattle despite a ten year leave.
I am reminded of love.
I am so lucky to have him.

Thankful

With the constant stream of thankful posts daily on facebook I want to add my own list of the abundance I am thankful for.
1. My new little family Rick and I are creating. My Family.
2. Rick
3. Health

I have so many others but without these everything else seems meaningless. Forever grateful for those that I am so happy to have in my life. That I am physically capable of doing the things I want. So blessed in this year.

Adele: NPR Music Tiny Desk Concert

Very much overplayed but for me its not yet old.
She makes it look effortless

Pinch myself

I had one of those moments yesterday.
a moment to savor.
i tried to look around and breathe it in.
to remember the words.
remember the feelings.
the one i want-wanting me back
remember his smile.
i'm pinching myself because the love surrounding me...
it's glittering .
thanks god.
really thank you.

Days like these

I will remember that everyone is fighting something bigger than themselves

Secrets
i love taylor swift and her songs
i feel like she knows just how i feel
i would choose to watch a baby story over almost all else.
i cry when the baby is born
i detest women smoking-it literally disgusts me
i think a man smoking is attractive
i hate the way i look without mascara
i overthink others critisism of me and i take it to heart
i shouldn't care
i love to fly
i count calories in my head
not just for myself but others
i think i'm a detective when i'm on a run because I try to recall the cars that belong in what driveway
i like eating the middle of an oreo and giving the rest to my puppy
i never knew what heartbreak felt like till this year- my heart literally felt broken
live flowers in the house make me feel like a rich person and extravegant
i hate shopping and feeling buyers remorse- i like to drink after shopping to take it away
yoga pants make me feel curvy and i adore it
feeling loved and wanted is the best gift i've ever been given
dancing by myself is a daily passtime- i thinks i'm great

To carry

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you


here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart


i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)


Just love this poem.
Fills me up.

Country Strong Movie Clip "Give In To Me" Official (HD)

I'm gonna wear you down
I'm gonna make you see
I'm gonna get to you
You're gonna give into me

I'm gonna start a fire
You're gonna feel the heat
I'm gonna burn for you
You're gonna melt for me


Come on, come on
Into my arms
Come on, come on
Give into me

You're gonna take my hand
Whisper the sweetest words
And if you're ever sad
I'll make you laugh
I'll chase the hurt

My heart is set on you
I don't want no one else
And if you don't want me
I guess I'll be all by myself

Come on, come on
Into my arms
Come on, come on
Give into me

I'll use my eyes to draw you in
Until I'm under your skin
I'll use my lips, I'll use my arms
Come on, come on, come on
Give into me


Give into me
Give into me

5 Year Old Girl Raps Nicki Minaj's "Superbass"

Had to share. I love her

Ryan Adams - Lucky Now

Birdy - Shelter (Official Video)

I was listening to the civil wars and came across another birdy song.
I find her haunting
Laying in front of my speakers and feeling her voice.
a complete different sound than adele but I find her just as moving.

i read this quote this week...
"be kinder than necessary, for everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle"

This makes me want to reign in my thoughts.
take back harsh judgements and words.
wrap them up and give the benefit.
it's hard to do so.
hard when my own experiences lead me to believe that you can be strong and carry on.

this week i want to hold my words a little closer.

fear

i turned in my application to graduate school.
nervous doesn't cover it
worry
i am finally in a place where I am happy and am frightened
if i get accepted will it ruin my newfound happy?
will 2 years be taken away from my family life by focusing on school?
i finally have my own family.
i want my everything
my love. a family. school.
the people in my life to understand that i need them.
can i have it all?
always wondering if i'm enough?
can i be everything i need to be?
i don't know and this scares me.

Blown away

this year has brought so many changes.
i am constantly looking around and wondering where did the time go.
i don't know why but it feels like borrowed time.

Slow Your Breath Down

Give it all and give some more

Cherish and Give it all

These past few weeks help me put so many things into perspective.
The fact that everyday life should not be taken for granted.
those around me i should not take for granted.
Cherish

My love, who makes me dream, was in a fire that he was lucky to walk out of. It frightens me. I don't like to imagine a future without him in it.

A friend of mine I got to take care of yesterday. I crawled into bed next to her while she cried. I hate illness. It wraps around your soul weighing it down. Her eyes said how much she hurt. I went to leave and she asked if I could stay a little longer. I sat back down and hummed a song she said she liked until she fell asleep. It breaks my heart to see her eyes void of their light.

A friend of mine suffered a loss no one should ever have to go through. A loss of her child.

Then a brutal death that no one should have to suffer. A death full of fear and brutality that I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. It's a death that no one should even have to witness.

My conclusion and meaning I think are to be EVER PRESENT. Present here. Present today. Vitaly Present.

He Is We - All About Us ft. Owl City

This I Gotta See

I keep thinking about one year ago at this time.
Some of it I don't like to dwell on but I don't think I would be
where I am today without it. Or appreciate it so much.
And today and what's coming looks so bright.
The changes.
Dreams that I was dreaming then keep coming true.
I love the smile that sits on my face.
I can't seem to wipe it off.
This future, I just have to see it.

Parachute

Always listen to your heart because even though it's on your left side it's always right.

I know I can count on you

there is such beauty in the things that you and I take for granted
i am so grateful
i am so very humbled
i wish for grace
i hope for love

Beyoncé - 1+1

Hold on

I never thought things would be easy. I've had to work so hard for everything that has turned out wonderful in my life. I have made mistakes. So many. I give everything when I decide what it is I want. I overthink. My fears get the best of me. My stomach churns. My heart turns over for fear that I may lose what's important to me. Sometimes it is blinding. The real perspective is there under cripling misconceptions. What you mean and what you say is not what I hear. This said. The reality is I have a beautiful life. A beautiful future in my sight. I just want to grasp it and never let go. Hold on with me.

Making Plans

If I ever left this town
I'd never settle down
I'd just be wanderin' around
If I ever left this town

If I wasn't by your side
I'd never be satisfied
Nothin' would feel just right
If I wasn't by your side

'Cause I'm not easy to understand
But you know me like the back of your hand
I'm your girl and you're my man
And we're makin' plans....

We can go on and on
Won't ever feel too long
I'll always call you home
And we'll go on and on

'Cause I know you like the back of my hand
Got a heart of gold and a piece of land
I'm your girl and you're my man
And we're makin' plans....

I'm sitting with miss suz and drinking my morning mocha coffee in bliss, thinking too much. VH1 morning countdown is on. Our walk this morning was beautiful. Sun shining but crisp and cool. It makes me long for fall. Next month in the fall I will be 25. I constantly ask myself where did the time go. At 25 I thought I would be different, in a different place, a different life. I thought I would be a cool, cloth diaper, music loving, hip, momma wife. Thus far I have achieved the music loving. And I am a momma to our suz. I am really ok with that.I've learned so much about myself by not being that person. This is what I tell myself. I am happy. I have a wonderful guy and although we don't see eye to eye on some things is there for me. I love him more than I thought I was capable of. I didn't realize that could hurt so much. I'm excited for changes but I feel like all I do is make plans. So for my birthday I am going to blow out the candle and wish for all my dreaming dreams to come true. It could happen...right? :) I hope 25 is an amazing year and my cup continues to run over.

Christina Perri - Distance + Lyrics

"Distance"

The sun is filling up the room
And I can hear you dreaming
Do you feel the way I do right now?
I wish we would just give in Cause the best part is falling
Call it anything but love

And I will make sure to keep my distance
Say "I love you" when you're not listening
How long can we keep this up, up, up?

And please don't stand so close to me
I'm having trouble breathing
I'm afraid of what you'll see right now
I give you everything I am
All my broken heart beats
Until I know you understand
And I will make sure to keep my distance
Say "I love you" when you're not listening
How long can we keep this up, up, up?

And I keep waiting
For you to take me
You keep waiting
To save what we have

So I make sure to keep my distance
Say "I love you" when you're not listening
How long can we keep this up, up, up?

Make sure to keep my distance
Say "I love you" when you're not listening

Hanging By a Moment

At times I know that I lose it a little.
Emotional shake up.
A comment, a song, a commercial makes me want to cry.
My insecurities all sit on the surface of my mind.
Easily read all over my face.
The fact that I don't feel worthy.
All the worries I have make me feel like I can't breathe.
Relationships. Wants. Beliefs.
It just makes me feel like my normal rose colored glasses only see grey.
I know this is hormones. I feel it coming every month.
It makes me feel weak. It makes me feel guilty.
I'm normally such a positive person.
I know this is normal. A majority of my friends are irritable or tearful.
Doesn't mean I hate it any less.
and pimp. thanks for dealing with me happy. being with me crazy. holding me when i'm sad. You make my heart float.

Pearl Jam - Love Boat Captain

"Love Boat Captain"

Is this just another day,... this god forgotten place?
First comes love, then comes pain. Let the games begin,...
Questions rise and answers fall,... insurmountable.

Love boat captain
Take the reigns and steer us towards the clear,... here.
It's already been sung, but it can't be said enough.
All you need is love

Is this just another phase? Earthquakes making waves,...
Trying to shake the cancer off? Stupid human beings,...
Once you hold the hand of love,.. it's all surmountable.

Hold me, and make it the truth,...
That when all is lost there will be you,...
Cause to the universe I don't mean a thing
And there's just one word I stil believe
And it's

It's an art to live with pain,... mix the light into grey,..
Lost 9 friends we'll never know,.. 2 years ago today
And if our lives became too long, would it add to our regret?

And the young, they can lose hope cause they can't see beyond today,...
The wisdom that the old can't give away
Hey,...
Constant recoil...
Sometimes life
Don't leave you alone.

Hold me, and make it the truth,...
That when all is lost there will be you.
Cause to the universe I don't mean a thing
And there's just one word that I still believe and it's
Love,... love. love. love. love.

Love boat captain
Take the reigns,.. steer us towards the clear.
I know it's already been sung,... can't be said enough.
Love is all you need,.. all you need is love,..
Love,.. love,...
Love.

The Beatles - Blackbird

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these sunken eyes and learn to see
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to be free

Blackbird fly, blackbird fly
Into the light of the dark black night

Blackbird fly, blackbird fly
Into the light of the dark black night

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
You were only waiting for this moment to arise


Learning that I need to keep my mouth shut and ears open. Better all around.

faith love

I've grown up having a difficult time with religion.
I've never questioned the fact that there is a God.
I question flaws that come with it. Human interpretation.
I've come to realize that it doesn't really matter at all.
The life I live reveals my faith.
Not the church I go to.
Not the religion I proclaim.
Not others judgement of my decisions.
Not others proclamation of sin.
Not your bible.
I see God as representation of goodness.
You say yin and yang. Karma. Allah. Yahweh. Buddha.Christian. Jew. Doesn't matter.
I want to live well.
I want to create goodness.
Living by no one person's interpretation of a bible, created by man, is going to get me there.

I am happy.
I am whole.
I am finally confident.


God gave me you for the ups and downs
God gave me you for the days of doubt
For when I think I’ve lost my way
There are no words here left to say, it’s true
God gave me you


On my own I’m only
Half of what I could be
I can’t do without you
We are stitched together
And what love has tethered
I pray we never undo


God gave me you for the ups and downs
God gave me you for the days of doubt
God gave me you for the ups and downs
God gave me you for the days of doubt
For when I think I’ve lost my way
There are no words here left to say, it’s true
God gave me you, gave me you
Gave me you

Kenny Chesney Scare Me

on my sleeve

No one can sing it like adele but I dig it.

I realize how lucky I am.
I look around and do not feel like I could ask for more.
So frustrated with ignorance of someone who doesn't stop and look at the life they were given. The people they are blessed to know.
There is this quote about if you realized how little of time everyone thought about you that you wouldn't give a damn. Just meaning that people are so wrapped up in their own problems. Its not an intention to not take you into account but that the fact is that people have their own issues. So stop feeling sorry for yourself. Look around with clear eyes and think about someone other than yourself. I hate to see hurt. Especially with someone I love so much.

Countdown to Colorado. So excited for things to come.

I stroke her lightly, memorizing her body. I want her to melt into me, like butter on toast. I want to absorb her and walk around for the rest of my days with her encased in my skin. I lie motionless, savoring the feeling of her body against mine. I'm afraid to breathe in case I break the spell."
— Sara Gruen (Water for Elephants)
I am in the middle of this book and when I read this I felt it, I've been there. Not wanting to move because it's one of the happiest times you've ever felt. Holding onto that moment in time and wanting it to be endless. Sinking in like butter on toast.

Greg Laswell-This Woman's Work

i would wonder why birds stayed in the same place when they could fly anywhere in the world, then i asked myself the same question.

Never Felt So Real. Never Felt so RIght

It's not just a kiss.
It's my hand in yours.
It's a shot that I know we are right.
It's smiling with you in the dark.
It's being lucky I found you.
It's talking late in the night.
It's racing home to be with you.
It's letting my hair down.
It's singing in the car with the windows down.
It's late night ice cream.
It's smiles that are worth more than a dozen roses.
It's my head on your chest.
I know this is it.

Wiggle Happy

I was kindly reminded that I need to be living in the moment.
To remember that the life is not a race but should be a stroll with those I love.
I walked in the house this evening and susan came at me.
wiggles and all.
I had an immediate smile.
As I type her head is in my lap.
I feel like I am recieving a gift this year.
At night my puppy curls into my side and I get to hold the hand of my love.
I feel like I've won the lottery.
So no matter how long it takes I am stopping to smell the roses because I don't know when they will be gone.

Road Full of Promise

There’s a darkness upon me that’s flooded in light
In the fine print they tell me what’s wrong and what’s right
And it comes in black and it comes in white
And I’m frightened by those that don’t see it

When nothing is owed or deserved or expected
And your life doesn’t change by the man that’s elected
If you’re loved by someone, you’re never rejected
Decide what to be and go be it

There was a dream and one day I could see it
Like a bird in a cage I broke in and demanded that somebody free it
And there was a kid with a head full of doubt
So I’ll scream til I die and the last of those bad thoughts are finally out

There’s a darkness upon you that’s flooded in light
And in the fine print they tell you what’s wrong and what’s right
And it flies by day and it flies by night
And I’m frightened by those that don’t see it

There was a dream and one day I could see it
Like a bird in a cage I broke in and demanded that somebody free it
And there was a kid with a head full of doubt
So I’ll scream til I die and the last of those bad thoughts are finally out

There was a dream and one day I could see it
Like a bird in a cage I broke in and demanded that somebody free it
And there was a kid with a head full of doubt
So I’ll scream til I die and the last of those bad thoughts are finally out

There’s a darkness upon me that’s flooded in light
In the fine print they tell me what’s wrong and what’s right
There’s a darkness upon me that’s flooded in light
And I’m frightened by those that don’t see it





Lucky
I've questioned the decisions I have made in the past wondering if they will take me to where I want to be. If the hard days are worth it. If being hurt will bring appreciation. All I can say is that they are, that it is. I feel like the road I am on is so very full of promise.

Undercover Sap

i wish i knew your habits, where you like to go
if you like it warm outside, or do you like the snow

I like to sit on the porch with you with a beer in my hand and the other in yours.
The snow makes me ache for summer It makes me think of sledding and christmas lights.oooooooh oh oh...

i can only just imagine, what you like.
i wish i knew your tastes, of what you like to drink.
if you like your coffee black or do you like it sweet?

Diet Coke. Orange Blossom.
Coffee. Black. Creamy.

oooooooh oh oh...

i wish i knew you better, than i do (Me too)
do you like to stay home or go out late at night, do you like to just go with the flow.

I like to come home and cuddle in bed.I wish you did tooohhhhhhhhhhhhh... i love everything about you

i wish i knew the future and how its gonna be so i could bump into you accidentally on the street.

oooooooh oh oh... just like in the movies... happens all the time.

i wish i had the courage to tell you how i feel.
steal away your heart with clever words,
seal it with a kiss.
You already did.oooooooh oh oh... im no that couragous... any more.

cant you read my mind, when i stare at you?
cant you feel my heart just break in two.

ohhhhhhhhhhhh... i love everything about you. (2x)

... everything about.

fragile

ms suz



I don't think of myself as a fragile person.
Obsessive. Yes. Harsh. Sometimes.
This week has made me want to well up at every turn.
I feel at a loss on a way to help.
The difficult truths.
Difficult deaths.
Frustrated with the facts.
Some don't even get a chance when others just squander theirs.
I don't want to squander mine.
Some days I find it easier to soak up. To filter through what I'm feeling.
This week everything just feels fragile.

Pearl Jam - I Can´t Help Falling In Love With You

Wise men say only fools rush in
but I can't help falling in love with you
Shall I stay
would it be a sin

Like a river flows surely to the sea
Darling so it goes
some things are meant to be
take my hand, take my whole life too
for I can't help falling in love with you

Like a river flows surely to the sea
Darling so it goes
some things are meant to be
take my hand, take my whole life too


Pearl Jam covering Elvis. Love.

Get to bring Suz home tomorrow!

Avett Brothers

She keeps it simple
And I am thankful for her kind of lovin'
'Cause it's simple

No longer do we wonder if we're together
We're way past that

She's talkin' to me with her voice
Down so low I barely hear her
But I know what she's sayin'
I understand because my heart and hers are the same

And I was sick with heartache
And she was sick like Audrey Hepburn when I met her
But we would both surrender

True love is not the kind of thing you should turn down
Don't ever turn it down

I hope that I don't sound to insane when I say
There is darkness all around us
I don't feel weak but I do need sometimes for her to protect me
And reconnect me to the beauty that I'm missin'

No longer does it matter what circumstances we were born in
She knows which birds are singin'
And the names of the trees where they're performin' in the mornin

I hope that I don't sound to insane when I say
There is darkness all around us
I don't feel weak but I do need sometimes for her to protect me
And reconnect me to the beauty that I'm missin'

No longer does it matter what circumstances we were born in
She knows which birds are singin'
And the names of the trees where they're performin' in the mornin


It may be time for Colorado...yes I think it is.

Blame it on my A D D

Lightening strikes the heart. goes off like a gun. Brighter than the sun.



If this is what we've got, then what we've got is gold.



Love her.

I am so busy and so happy.

Fall in

Do you know that day?
Everyone has had one.
You feel it glow.
It's letting the balloon fly.
The happiness of blowing the best bubble.
It's Catching fireflies.
It's ice cream dripping down your chin.
A favorite song on the radio.
Yesterday is a memory that I want to tuck under my pillow.
And let it dream...

Katharine McPhee - Terrified ft. Zachary Levi

This could be good.
It's already better than that.
I could be all that you're needing if you let me try.

Bedlight For Blue Eyes - Jumper

I know the reasons I became a nurse.
I thought I knew what I was getting into.
I had no idea.
Sometimes I forget to be human.
That the task and the fact that I am so busy is not an excuse to not take time.
The facts are: families are afraid.
They want reassurance and not a hurried nurse who is split in so many directions.
Last night I cleaned up a patient probably every ten minutes.
90% by myself.
She cried as I wiped.
Her daughter held her hand.
I wanted to cry too.
My back was aching from rolling 300 pounds on my own.
I was 8 hours into my 12 hour shift and had not had a break.
My hands had started their shakes that wouldn't stop.
I had 5 other patients and my phone wouldn't stop ringing.
Her stool was pooled around her.
Her bottom raw.
Her hair gone.
Tachycardic and drenched in sweat.
She was apoligizing repeatedly.
I started talking to not cry.
I asked about daughter. About her grandchildren. About her life.
The crying stopped and she slept.
When I took her to the unit her daughter held me in a hug. And held me.
Helped me remember that making the effort is worth it.

I am so grateful for health.

Amos Lee - Makin' Love

Just bought tickets for Amos Lee. Beautiful. Simply ecstatic.

I feel like I'm where I want to be.
I'm getting things back in order after I've messed them up supremely.
Summer is just around the corner and I'm so excited for what's to come.
I want to soak up my life.
I'm so happy in it.
I'm appreciating where I am.
Holding on so tightly.
This summer will be full of fireworks.

Strength

I love that you get cold when it is 71 degrees out. I love that it takes you an hour and a half to order a sandwich. I love that you get a little crinkle in your nose when you're looking at me like I'm nuts. I love that after I spend day with you, I can still smell your perfume on my clothes. And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night. And it's not because I'm lonely, and it's not because it's New Year's Eve. I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.
When Harry Met Sally

loved
seeing comfort
seeing family
lights dance
smiles are bright
holding hands
differences

Risk

Happiness is a risk. If you're not a little scared, then you're not doing it right.

penguins and an old man

Found this song when listening to jar of hearts...Listen to penguin too.

Fm Static - Lost In You [OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO]

I just want to....

Summertime

Banana Ice cream at Peppermint Patties
Baseball
Hot summer nights
Fairs
Water
Rafting
Marathons
Vacations
Flowers
Fireworks
Blue moon on the porch
Fresh cut grass
Windows down
Counting the stars
Hot sticky goodness
Catching fireflies
Bikinis
Garden tomatoes
Crickets
Afternoon naps
Sunblock
Daisy Dukes
Cookouts
Picnics
Popsicles
Boats
Love
Summer....

Crashing

Ivy Walker: When we are married, will you dance with me? I find dancing very agreeable. Why can you not say what is in your head?
Lucius Hunt: Why can you not stop saying what is in yours? Why must you lead, when I want to lead? If I want to dance I will ask you to dance. If I want to speak I will open my mouth and speak. Everyone is forever plaguing me to speak further. Why? What good is it to tell you you are in my every thought from the time I wake? What good can come from my saying that I sometimes cannot think clearly or do my work properly? What gain can rise of my telling you the only time I feel fear as others do is when I think of you in harm? That is why I am on this porch, Ivy Walker. I fear for your safety before all others. And yes, I will dance with you on our wedding night.



Sometimes the ride isn't smooth.
It's bumpy and you can't catch your breath.
You just put your hands out and let go.
Happily.

Smiling in the dark

Renew

This month.
Amazing.
Being with someone I love.
Being with my family.
March Madness.
Laughing.
Weddings.
Long talks with my best.
Just being surrounded by good.
Effortless.
And ahhh the sun.

can't fight the rain

The past week has been difficult.
Being new in school. I don't sit at the right table or with the right people.
Nothing is familiar except the narcotic seekers.
I can't say the doctors names and I spend half my time looking for them.
I miss my people.
I miss the people around that care.
New is hard.

Dreams

A dream you dream alone is only a dream. A dream you dream together is a reality.
-Lennon

I don't want to dream alone.

Do you long for the sunrise or do you ache for a sunset?
The end of a day makes me feel regret. Words left unsaid. Decisions that should have become actions. A sunrise makes me feel a new beginning. That what I want is a possibility. That the regret I feel from yesterday is forgotten. That old open wounds are healing and becoming scars. A sunrise is a new clean slate. Evenings leave me alone. Silent and heavy. Final. Just like always. I wish that I was happy in both.

giggling in the light

Good news
Good news that makes me want to giggle.
That makes me smile for the rest of the day.
That lets me bask in the light.
Beautiful. Blissful goodness.
This kind of news is a gift.
A friend gave me this gift.
New life.
My worries are set to the side and I just feel happiness.
Happy that yes- dreams can come true.

Tired

I was watching the Jerry Springer Show in the breakroom of my new job.
I felt like I was on the Jerry Springer Show in the ER today.
With each new patient I kept thinking Are you friggin kidding me?
Did I mention this is Day 10 straight. I'm exhausted and tired of bullshit.
I can't get over the thing people do to themselves and then want help with it.
Yo dumbass I don't want to help you.
I got into this job to help people who need it. You're just retarded.

I feel like the new kid in school.
Keep telling myself- right decision and will be better.
Hopefully.

The Naked And Famous - Young Blood

It will be alright in the end and if its not alright then it's not the end.

Save Me - Nicki Minaj ( with lyrics )

Today was beautiful!
I soaked up the 40 degree weather.
I lavished in my mom. She is beautiful.
I forget how easy it is to be with her.
I held a newborn on my chest for the afternoon.
His smell and the way he curled into me- ahhhh. Bliss.
I bought a pair of ugly camo cool shoes. and yes they can be cool and ugly.
I found a book I'd been psyched to read.
I got to cuddle.
I had my head hit on a peephole.
I ran and listened to nicki minaj cd- I'm going to wear it out.
Running makes me feel strong.
Now am simply relishing in the feel of a blanket, my couch, and a book.
Don't forget the diet coke at my side.
Loved today!

Bryan White- "Rebecca Lynn" - Moncton, New Brunswick, Canada

I love this song.
I can't find a good version on youtube.
First concert.
Takes me back every time.
Makes me smile.

Ring around the roses.
Pocket full of dreams and poises.

When love is wrong, it dies
And thats the way it goes
But when its right
You know love it grows

Wiz Khalifa - Black And Yellow [Official Music Video]

this song is on everywhere
including on repeat in my house - thanks corey


today the sun came out
i actually felt the sun on my back
my whole attitude changed
i just wanted to lay back and soak it up
i smile and smile and smile

Wiz Khalifa - Black And Yellow [Official Music Video]

this song is on everywhere
including on repeat in my house - thanks corey


today the sun came out
i actually felt the sun on my back
my whole attitude changed
i just wanted to lay back and soak it up
i smile and smile and smile

Adele - Rolling In The Deep

- "Teenage Dream"

i want to be a teenage dream

Hearts open. Hearts breaking.

They say the best things in life don't come easy.
I'm trying to remember that.
I am just sad, upset, hurt.
Right when I think that I've found my place.
That the happy I've achieved is going to stick around
My confidence is shattered.
My hope and happy aren't sticking with me.
I know what I feel and what I want.
Getting what I want isn't always achieveable.

Hugo - 99 Problems

I hate that I didn't find this first.
Like the folk thug style.

99 problems but a bitch ain't one

Andrew Belle - The Ladder

clatter
does it matter that i can't clear my mind
there's a right and a wrong time

be the right time

whoa is me

I will be the one to gaze on you
slow your speak
turn yourself around and gaze on me

stop making us hurt

Helpless

I really don't like the Britney Spears version of this but this girl makes it sound amazing.


I've never let someone else's timeline dictate my own.
I don't ever remember feeling as if I need anyone in my life.
Never felt helpless and this confused.
Stagnant.
Waiting.
Conflicted.
Afraid.
I feel all these things.
But I also feel wanted.
Loved.
Hopeful.
Excited.

Cage The Elephant - Shake Me Down *NEW SONG*

Shake Me Down"

Shake me down,
Not a lot of people left around,
Who knows now,
Softly laying on the ground, ooooh
Not a lot people left around, ooooh. ooooh

In my life, I have seen,
People walk into the sea,
Just to find memories,
Plagued by constant misery,
Their eyes cast down,
Fixed upon the ground,
Their eyes cast down

I'll keep my eyes fixed on the sun

Shake me down,
Cut my hair on a silver cloud,
Broken sound,
Softly laying on the ground, ooooh
Not a lot people left around, ooooh, ooooh

In my past, bittersweet,
There's no love between the sheets,
Taste the blood, broken dreams,
Lonely times indeed,
With eyes cast down,
Fixed upon the ground,
Eyes cast down

I'll keep my eyes fixed on the sun

Turn back now its time for me to let go,
Way down had to find a place to lay low,
Lampshade turned around into a light post

Walk around the corner,
Never saw it coming still,
I try to make a move,
It almost stopped me from belief,
I don't wanna know the future,
But I'm like rolling thunder,

Even on a cloudy day,
Even on a cloudy day,
Even on a cloudy day,
Even on a cloudy day,
Even on a cloudy day,
Even on a cloudy day,
Even on a cloudy day,

I'll keep my eyes fixed on the-
I'll keep my eyes fixed on the-
I'll keep my eyes fixed on the sun

Shake me down,
Not a lot of people left around, ooooh, ooooh



Freakin rocks

Grow Old With You - Adam Sandler

It's not ok.

Firework - Katy Perry (Boyce Avenue cover feat. David Choi on strings) o...

I'm addicted.I like the covers.

So excited for the new year. \
I'm happy.
I love the relationships I've made this year.
I know what I want and I'm going after it.

Beautiful

Sappy and Ridiculous.
But it makes me smile.