Comin' Home

Rick would say this is some of more depressing music but I love how it feels to put this on the pandora station and let it ride.

I've been up since 5am this morning post a very restless night of sleep. I think I've been having some braxton hicks. Back pain radiating to my stomach. I honestly don't know if it is but they said if it was real I would know. So  this morning my hands are swollen, slight kankles, back pain, crotch pain, and heartburn/indigestion. None of the pain is consistent and it is not overwhelming so I feel it most be normal. Frequent dreams last night. I think that I am so hopeful he'll come soon and anxious about it at the same time. Every time someone sees me they say, OMG you're so small! This makes me anxious because I want him healthy. The doctor is guessing right around 7 pounds so we are okay with that.
I didn't realize that once a child came along that our every thought is first and foremost revolving around him. I just feel like my mind is constantly preoccupied with thoughts of him. I just want him healthy and pray about this hope everyday. I love you little man Birt. You are measuring at 38 weeks. I am 37 weeks 4days.