Starve Fear

This really resonated with me. I have fear of not being a good person. Not being a good mother or wife. I think this fear consumes my thoughts and reactions. I quell my feelings, responses because I want to meet those molds. Society tells us we can have it all. We can be mothers, full time workers, go to school, do crafts, bake, cook, have a rocking body, take care of our families. We can be everything. in that process of having it all I think we can lose ourselves. To strip ourselves of these labels, that pre mommy, pre marriage made us. I worked so hard to find myself and I'm becoming someone else all over again. None of this is a bad thing. Life is about change and learning but I want to live without fear. I want to revel in all the pieces of myself and not be ashamed of myself. I am loud. I can be mean. i never forget. i hold grudges. I can cry at the drop of a hat. But I am good and need to remember that I am worthy. I need to not fear my true self. Because I am who I am and am forever growing. When you acknowledge that there is nothing repulsive or unforgivable or shameful about yourself, it becomes easier to be that authentic person and feel like you're living a less performed life.